The little things in life. =)

I've been thinking, re-thinking, stopped thinking, deconstructed and started thinking again. But still- i don't understand. It came as a surprise, and to be honest, i'm most freaked because i didn't see it coming, and i don't understand to the detail: why? the worse is that i thought i ought to understand. I don't really know what to say about this- perhaps nothing. perhaps i'm too conservative, perhaps. but i really don't understand. josh, if you're reading this, haha, your "slap in the face" prompted me to this. haha.. it's like a slap in the face cus i really thought i knew this someone, and now all of a sudden, i think that has been challenged. A lot. My fault perhaps, perhaps i knew and understood lesser than what i thought i did. perhaps i was over-confident. Perhaps i did have some understanding once, but perhaps its wrong to assume that people have a static mind and character. Perhaps i should have kept in touch more. Perhaps t

dislike seeing an emo post. be gone! med chem sucked. i hope patho pharmaco will b good.. fingers crossed!

it's gonna be an emo post. Please don't comment cus i don't really want consolation, i just need the rant. or even better- please dont read it. mc paper today was a piece of rubbish. this is exactly like its last test for mc. when i came out of the test worrying about not completing the paper, worrying about the parts that i think i'll fail, but thankful for at least the questions that i got correct. im an easily satisfied person you know. but then, along comes somebody who accurately, sharply and very painfully point out a crucial mistake in those too. n that's it, i'm officially gonna fail the paper. just like failing pharmaco. im not somebody who takes results overly seriously. n i know we shouldnt worry about the Bs and Cs. But how about the Ds and Es? I.... really wanted to pull up my cap this sem. i think i've put that out of my mind already. and i sincerely say i worked much harder this sem than i ever did. i cant really survive without sleep. But thi

just because society has turned cold, doesn't mean i will. just because friendships may be a thing of practicality now, doesn't mean it will be that to me. i shall believe, that there are exceptions. i shall believe, that maybe, it just takes a bit longer for a true bond to be formed for others. i shall believe, that people can be moved; that ice can be melted. (global warming dammit) i shall believe in this. and i will continue to believe in friendship, brotherhood and the communal spirit. i will believe.

life can do with a little bit of sunshine right now. hmm. n no, i'm not talking about exams. that- i shant even embark on.

I don't quite enjoy the style of media nowadays in Singapore. Media is starting to feel a tad too "entertainment" now with the rising of citizen journalism in the form of stomp and xin.msn. I don't enjoy the way that news get spun up into a huge story which captivates people for a few days, or maybe weeks, and then have everyone on to yet another piece of enthralling news. This i observed since the times of Mas Selamat, which was yet another sensational news that tided over and everyone forgot about. I hope that the news gets forgotten, but not the lesson though. Now, don't get me mistaken; reading the news is not wrong. But the style of journalism nowadays seem to go along the lines of feeding public interests, and solely that. Having the media start to stray away from the actual news and enter into the lives of the people involved to use them as news, in a bid to captivate readers' attention- that, i think is wrong. And with more and more empowerment of the

Life is without meaning. You bring the meaning to it. The meaning of life is whatever you ascribe it to be. --Being alive is the meaning. joseph campbell

Speak to be understood. This is my random thought of the day. I've been doing a little bit of reading and writing for a project that i am due to submit tomorrow. (something that i ought to be working on right now, instead of blogging haha. But this is a quickie i swear.) I realise that many people have the tendency to write in long, complicated sentences which are strings of clause after clause after clause. Long, convoluted sentences that wraps itself around your brain and clench real hard, before you can make any head or tail out of it. And after you are done with that, you're on to yet another one. I got reminded of this a couple of days ago, when i read an interview by Mr Lee about his wife's influence on him. She says that we should write in clear concise sentences. I agree. But i think that long-winded sentences are simply a reflection of our incessantly firing neurons, that we are sometimes too lazy to curb and correct. The next time you write, ask yourself: "

oh yes! i forgot, i wanted to share this for www.paulocoelhoblog.com. Character of the week: Chaplin Published on September 10, 2010 in Character of the Week . 42 Comments Print 210 Share A day without laughter is a day wasted. Despair is a narcotic: it lulls the mind into indifference. I do not have much patience with a thing of beauty that must be explained to be understood. If it does need additional interpretation by someone other than the creator, then I question whether it has fulfilled its purpose. Life could be wonderful if people would leave you alone. Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot. I thought I would dress in baggy pants, big shoes, a cane and a derby hat. everything a contradiction: the pants baggy, the coat tight, the hat small and the shoes large. I had no idea of the character. But the moment I was dressed, the clothes and the make-up made me feel the person he was. I began to know him, and by the time I walked onto the stage he was

Hohoho, it's been awhile since i updated! haha, been pleasantly occupied Nowadays. =) *breaks into a song* It's good, isn't it? Grand, isn't it? Great, isn't it? Swell, isn't it? Fun, isn't it? Nowadays~ =) *cough:CHICAGOMG!* SO! if you had to sum up 2010 thus far in a word, what would it be? Hmm, i'd say dramatic and (now) peaceful. (i can't count! =)) Hmm, it's another rollercoaster year this year. Not entirely in a bad sense i guess, i think i will finally have things to talk about in my end of year review! =) haha, but i'll save that for then! for today, i just thought i'd give a public thanks (despite the fact that my blog's public is probably not more than a handful) to this very nice lady who decided to give me a lift after seeing that i was DRENCHED in the rain this morning, waiting for the green man at the traffic junction, with my bag on my head as a feeble shelter. =) THANK YOU. =) I don't know you, but today you remin

School has started for about 2 weeks and i'm tremendously behind time with all the lessons missed due to yog. This is worrying. But nonetheless, i view this semester with a little more confidence than the past one. Screw this, i'm gonna OWN! hahha, alright i'm just saying to psych myself up. =) But yes, i took the effort over the past couple of weeks to clear out some of the junk that has been accumulating since i graduated from JC. Almost as though it was done on purpose, these uncleared junk are the perfect parallelism to how i have given up the reigns over my own life for the past 2-3 years. Well, something's about to change. Enough of self-psyching, self-centered talk. =) the mega event of the recent past is probably YOG. As we can all see, there is a huge hoo hah about this event. It's not exactly a huge part of my life, but it has indeed given me a fresh experience. The organisation of the competition over at my event, leaves much much more to be desired for.

Once every so often, I like to withdraw into myself and shut out the world- whimsically. Just stop talking. No real reasons. Not really the first time. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, this is a part of me that needs some getting used to. Perhaps, the people who knows me, knows this happens. Perhaps, the people who do, doesnt exist. Perhaps i'm wrong- Perhaps this is selfish. But once, just once, every so often- i'd like to claim my leave from social behaviors. Just once every so often, i'd like to disappear. Take the phone off the hook- for ages. -I'm sorry though, if my habits hurt. And i do so appreciate the concern too. But, like my daddy says: ourself knows best. sk

i don't feel much about the end of exams actually- i guess that is a signal that perhaps i didn't work hard enough and build up the hunger for relaxation while mugging, hence i don't feel the surge of relief. Ah- i miss that feeling much actually. next sem will be a better sem. YES IT WILL BE. -------------------------- Preceptorship will commence on the coming Monday. I am rather excited about it, and I look forward to a time of learning and actually applying the knowledge that i have learnt in school. I believe if you ever meet a pharmer undergrad, you will hear the same unanimous complain about how there doesn't seem to be a meaning in doing what we are doing. How it feels like we are simply dead memorising the cold, hard, facts. How we all disagree with the system and feel that university education should be about thinking- and how it's been a long time since we last did more of that. For me, the curriculum has honestly entrenched certain doubts in this career p

I just got home from the cemetery. It’s been perhaps 2 years since I last went sao mooing with my parents. The feelings about the trip are unchanged though. In the cemetery in the mornings, I always find a sense of calm and serenity. It’s really really beautiful in the morning during the drive over, when we pass the stretches of grassland, covered in a thin layer of mystiquey mist. With the rising sun illuminating the landscape, refracted in the water droplets hovering in the air, every thing looks so so nice. =) This year, quite a few people went to sao mu from my daddy’s side of the family. To my surprise, my grandmother went too. Note: she can hardly walk/stand/sit without pain (she told me one ok, not i exaggerate!).So yes, i was rather surprised to see her there. I like to hang out with my ah ma, even though i can’t really speak fluent hokkien. And sometimes i don’t understand the things she say. But i still like to hang out with her! =D while the rest of my uncles and aunties

Confused. is perhaps the wrong word. -------- clear headed and clear hearted. but where responsibilities meet emotions- tough.

i ought to be stoned. -dont laugh jcjhia**. i know u are. =.=

Now i come to the real reason why i decided to blog today. I'm not sure how obvious this is, but the fact that i'm on my blog ranting away the second time in a week, tells me that i'm going through a rather emotional patch right now. At this juncture, i would like to advise that anyone who happens to be reading this, to stop reading and go do something more productive with your life. Think of the following content as some Jack Neo sequel. or some reports on the William Tan civil lawsuit. YES, you got it-TRASHY is the word. So go on away now. it's unpleasant i swear. Especially if you, my friend, are going to judge me. i will really appreciate it that you don't comment. I'm gonna admit that i'm in the midst of carrying on a mistake. I'll be very honest about it. I'm not seeking advice, because you and i both know, that at the end of the day, I only wanna listen to myself. Yes, i've grown stubborn. Anna says that growing up is the process of sewing

i feel like the jabber wocky from alice in the wonderland with that name. It's 3:24am in the morning. i just got woken up from my sleep.. Well, yesterday was the test for Pharm practice. The test went alright; a little disappointed in the soap section because i didnt catch something that lilian said in class (hence did not include it in my soap. marks marks precious marks.). Had a rather eventful after-test though. =) Had ajisen and very unexpectedly caught this movie named "up in the air", which i really really enjoyed! I really do recommend that movie! =D Pity i dont hear much hype and buzz about it. i guess it's because the media is occluded with rubbish scandals EVERYDAY nowadays. Urgh, my eyes. (note to edwin: i think this is where your low information diet comes in handy). But yes, i digress- back to the movie. I really did enjoy the movie. And me being me, i actually enjoyed it more than i did for Alice in Wonderland. I guess the company played a part in this

it's been a hectic few weeks. It is so very easy to lose track of time when work is piling up in a never ending stream. However, complain as i may, i do somewhat enjoy the bumble bee life that i am currently leading. There is always that odd sort of masochistic fulfillment that you get, when you finish an assignment, a lap report or a test after nights of night sleeping. i like. =D I have been leading the past few weeks of my life, very differently from the way i used to live them. In particular, i have been leading the past few weeks of my life differently from the way i lived them for the past 2 years. Go figure. Something has changed. Hmm, I am afraid to face up to the change actually; i'm unsure of where this current state of life is going to lead me. It's an apprehensive feeling- like stepping into the dark. There is a constant nagging worry at the back of my head, but i'm enjoying each new surprise so much that it is enough for me to ignore that voice. But no, i&#