The little things in life. =)

I just got home from the cemetery. It’s been perhaps 2 years since I last went sao mooing with my parents. The feelings about the trip are unchanged though. In the cemetery in the mornings, I always find a sense of calm and serenity. It’s really really beautiful in the morning during the drive over, when we pass the stretches of grassland, covered in a thin layer of mystiquey mist. With the rising sun illuminating the landscape, refracted in the water droplets hovering in the air, every thing looks so so nice. =) This year, quite a few people went to sao mu from my daddy’s side of the family. To my surprise, my grandmother went too. Note: she can hardly walk/stand/sit without pain (she told me one ok, not i exaggerate!).So yes, i was rather surprised to see her there. I like to hang out with my ah ma, even though i can’t really speak fluent hokkien. And sometimes i don’t understand the things she say. But i still like to hang out with her! =D while the rest of my uncles and aunties

Confused. is perhaps the wrong word. -------- clear headed and clear hearted. but where responsibilities meet emotions- tough.

i ought to be stoned. -dont laugh jcjhia**. i know u are. =.=

Now i come to the real reason why i decided to blog today. I'm not sure how obvious this is, but the fact that i'm on my blog ranting away the second time in a week, tells me that i'm going through a rather emotional patch right now. At this juncture, i would like to advise that anyone who happens to be reading this, to stop reading and go do something more productive with your life. Think of the following content as some Jack Neo sequel. or some reports on the William Tan civil lawsuit. YES, you got it-TRASHY is the word. So go on away now. it's unpleasant i swear. Especially if you, my friend, are going to judge me. i will really appreciate it that you don't comment. I'm gonna admit that i'm in the midst of carrying on a mistake. I'll be very honest about it. I'm not seeking advice, because you and i both know, that at the end of the day, I only wanna listen to myself. Yes, i've grown stubborn. Anna says that growing up is the process of sewing

i feel like the jabber wocky from alice in the wonderland with that name. It's 3:24am in the morning. i just got woken up from my sleep.. Well, yesterday was the test for Pharm practice. The test went alright; a little disappointed in the soap section because i didnt catch something that lilian said in class (hence did not include it in my soap. marks marks precious marks.). Had a rather eventful after-test though. =) Had ajisen and very unexpectedly caught this movie named "up in the air", which i really really enjoyed! I really do recommend that movie! =D Pity i dont hear much hype and buzz about it. i guess it's because the media is occluded with rubbish scandals EVERYDAY nowadays. Urgh, my eyes. (note to edwin: i think this is where your low information diet comes in handy). But yes, i digress- back to the movie. I really did enjoy the movie. And me being me, i actually enjoyed it more than i did for Alice in Wonderland. I guess the company played a part in this

it's been a hectic few weeks. It is so very easy to lose track of time when work is piling up in a never ending stream. However, complain as i may, i do somewhat enjoy the bumble bee life that i am currently leading. There is always that odd sort of masochistic fulfillment that you get, when you finish an assignment, a lap report or a test after nights of night sleeping. i like. =D I have been leading the past few weeks of my life, very differently from the way i used to live them. In particular, i have been leading the past few weeks of my life differently from the way i lived them for the past 2 years. Go figure. Something has changed. Hmm, I am afraid to face up to the change actually; i'm unsure of where this current state of life is going to lead me. It's an apprehensive feeling- like stepping into the dark. There is a constant nagging worry at the back of my head, but i'm enjoying each new surprise so much that it is enough for me to ignore that voice. But no, i&#

It was an honest joke-gone-bad. I don't personally swear so very often (minus the everyday walao and wakaos), and i definitely did not go with the intention to insult or offend when i said what i said. I was under the impression that we were all in the spirit of jest. I am sorry that you took offence to what i said; but please trust that none was intended. It was my bad, nonetheless. So i will apologise for it. I'm sorry. Sincerely sorry for the hurt that i may have caused because of my lack of self censorship for that moment in time. Please understand that it was absolutely unintentional. To be fair to myself though, i think this is as far as i would go to try and make amends. Because i do not see how the misuse of a single word, would warrant so much hostility to a friend (i assume), who made a bad joke. Finally, I don't know how long you intend to continue being angry, but I hope you get over it soon.