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change. and other random thoughts.

it's been a hectic few weeks. It is so very easy to lose track of time when work is piling up in a never ending stream. However, complain as i may, i do somewhat enjoy the bumble bee life that i am currently leading. There is always that odd sort of masochistic fulfillment that you get, when you finish an assignment, a lap report or a test after nights of night sleeping.

i like. =D

I have been leading the past few weeks of my life, very differently from the way i used to live them. In particular, i have been leading the past few weeks of my life differently from the way i lived them for the past 2 years. Go figure. Something has changed. Hmm, I am afraid to face up to the change actually; i'm unsure of where this current state of life is going to lead me. It's an apprehensive feeling- like stepping into the dark. There is a constant nagging worry at the back of my head, but i'm enjoying each new surprise so much that it is enough for me to ignore that voice. But no, i'm not turning emo over this. =D i just need some alone time, to think and sort things out with myself rationally, rather than emotionally.

Somebody asked me "what is the colour of jealousy?". i said "colourless" but i never really got to explain why. it's because jealousy blinds you. Good point to note and take home (so othello!).

Edwin's blog is one of my constant reads. It's very interesting to watch how he manges his life, because, he is one of those people i will label, as "people who took the road less travelled". And in all honesty, he is probably the only one who really deserves that label. =D keep going ed! =D I hope you'll succeed in all your ventures and endeavours. many cheers to you and your guts! I'll quote alice in wonderland "Yes, unfortunately you are (mad). Completely bonkers. But let me tell you a secret- all the best people are."

i recently bought 2 new books- "the tipping point" by malcolm gladwell, and "lovely bones" by ... somebody. (HAHAHA) Am starting on the fiction one first! =D I've almost forgotten how enjoyable it is to read, and lose yourself in the fictitious world buried between the pages of your book.

I am really glad that I finally can swim. =D haa, i really love swimming! I like the feeling of water rushing against your skin. it's like having a cool breeze sweep over you- except, you can control the "wind" in the water. i love the nice cool feeling of water against skin. i like it that in the water, you don't hear a thing. i love the way i come up gasping for air after a few laps in the pool. i love the way swimming helps to clear all the clutter from my head; in the water, i focus on the strokes, on breathing, and for the time in the pool i can forget about everything else. And when i surface from the pool, i can think more clearly. in essence, i really love swimming. =D

i am disgusted with the state of my body. =D (this reminds me of ili. LOL, during one of those days when i was feeling down and pissed off, she sent me a very random "i feel abit fat. free to gym?" and put a smile on my face immediately. thanks dude. =D) so yes, i'm finally starting to gym and jog and swim regularly. =D i have a personal goal: to take part in a full marathon before i graduate from nus. =)

Somebody asked me before, why im always sneaking peeks at people when im outside. That got me thinking a bit. I don't know. But i do know, that if you observe hard enough, everyday around you, many good things are happening. I think it's important that once every so often, we need to take a good look at life, and realise that there are many small things in life that makes it great. Look at the babies, full of life. couples- of love. students- able to go to school. groups of secondary kids- friends and joy (because i always get reminded of my own times in bpghs =D). Many many many more. One day, when you are feeling stressed up and unhappy, promise that you will try to focus on looking at life, and find these small things that makes life great. And cheer yourself up from there. Because life is worth living. =)

ok, i think this shall conclude my very random post of thoughts running through my mind. =D till next time!


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