The little things in life. =)

Ah. What a period of time. I'm tired of hearing the banter, the chants and the rhetoric. It's elections talk talk talk and debates everywhere and although I see some good arguments here and there, ultimately, I'm tired of it. I will quote Mr Tan Chuan Jin. "Let's agree to disagree." Over the past week, day in day out, i see people post notes or essays to criticise or voice their opinions. I'm fine with that, for your opinion is yours. What I have contention with, is the fact that many posts winds up with a persuasive slant. Otherwise, the comments that follow, serves to give that persuasive slant. Let my decision be mine. I would like to have the chance to know what i think, before you come and tell me what to think please. Another problem that i feel greatly about, is that many posts, though not all, focuses on only an issue or two wrt.... national policies, for example. And now, based on their feelings about that issue or two, people formulate their logi...

It's been a mildly strenuous evening. Well, I'm unwittingly offending people without meaning to at all. I think i need to shut up, but i need to vent a little.. well. To everyone i offended today, i don't know you, and i don't think you know me either. I didn't knowingly mean to offend/make mistakes that offend you. So please accept my sincere and humble apology. And perhaps stop walking around in my brain so it can rest. :) Apart from that, it's been a strenuous evening of debates at home. Not sure of what to say, but i think i shall say none for now. Perhaps im too arrogant in my beliefs of the right or wrong. Perhaps im just too plain arrogant in the closet. Perhaps it's a good time for some revaluation n change. Not the best evening I've had. Oh well, it's gonna be a new day tMr! Sk, learn to learn n move on bah. From me, to me. Goodnight world..

If the world does come to an end, it might be man against man. Seems like we're doing a good job destroying ourselves without intervention. If i'm an alien watching us from up above, i might laugh at just how smooth my kill-Earthlings-and-take-over-Earth!! plan is going without me lifting a finger. Pakistan, Libya, terrorists, etc- stop killing people already, please. the fact that this phrase would have been so taboo to me in the past, but is just rolling off my fingers right now, disturbs me. *sigh* what's the world coming to?

Random thoughts distracting me from studying. Friendship can be such a fragile thing. I never really did subscribe to the ideals that real friends contact each other most every other day. Perhaps it's ili and jo, but with my really close friends, we are close, regardless of contact. And i know we'll always stay that way. Perhaps i'm too emotionally isolated. But now, i find myself rethinking this habit of mine. well, recently i've been confronted again and again with changing group dynamics, changing relationships and sentiments, and undercurrents amongst a few of my closest friends. How shall i put this; the constants that i held on to in the past don't seem so constant anymore. That drives me a little mad. Having undercurrents left unsaid within a group- that drives me mad too. Slowly, i begin to identify individuals with their individuality rising up and above the cliques. Slowly i begin to realise that, perhaps they have found greener pastures elsewhere, other f...

after all these years, the one thing i cannot stand is still obnoxiousness. it's like... a fly. just gotta live with it.

I've been thinking, re-thinking, stopped thinking, deconstructed and started thinking again. But still- i don't understand. It came as a surprise, and to be honest, i'm most freaked because i didn't see it coming, and i don't understand to the detail: why? the worse is that i thought i ought to understand. I don't really know what to say about this- perhaps nothing. perhaps i'm too conservative, perhaps. but i really don't understand. josh, if you're reading this, haha, your "slap in the face" prompted me to this. haha.. it's like a slap in the face cus i really thought i knew this someone, and now all of a sudden, i think that has been challenged. A lot. My fault perhaps, perhaps i knew and understood lesser than what i thought i did. perhaps i was over-confident. Perhaps i did have some understanding once, but perhaps its wrong to assume that people have a static mind and character. Perhaps i should have kept in touch more. Perhaps t...

dislike seeing an emo post. be gone! med chem sucked. i hope patho pharmaco will b good.. fingers crossed!

it's gonna be an emo post. Please don't comment cus i don't really want consolation, i just need the rant. or even better- please dont read it. mc paper today was a piece of rubbish. this is exactly like its last test for mc. when i came out of the test worrying about not completing the paper, worrying about the parts that i think i'll fail, but thankful for at least the questions that i got correct. im an easily satisfied person you know. but then, along comes somebody who accurately, sharply and very painfully point out a crucial mistake in those too. n that's it, i'm officially gonna fail the paper. just like failing pharmaco. im not somebody who takes results overly seriously. n i know we shouldnt worry about the Bs and Cs. But how about the Ds and Es? I.... really wanted to pull up my cap this sem. i think i've put that out of my mind already. and i sincerely say i worked much harder this sem than i ever did. i cant really survive without sleep. But thi...

just because society has turned cold, doesn't mean i will. just because friendships may be a thing of practicality now, doesn't mean it will be that to me. i shall believe, that there are exceptions. i shall believe, that maybe, it just takes a bit longer for a true bond to be formed for others. i shall believe, that people can be moved; that ice can be melted. (global warming dammit) i shall believe in this. and i will continue to believe in friendship, brotherhood and the communal spirit. i will believe.

life can do with a little bit of sunshine right now. hmm. n no, i'm not talking about exams. that- i shant even embark on.

I don't quite enjoy the style of media nowadays in Singapore. Media is starting to feel a tad too "entertainment" now with the rising of citizen journalism in the form of stomp and xin.msn. I don't enjoy the way that news get spun up into a huge story which captivates people for a few days, or maybe weeks, and then have everyone on to yet another piece of enthralling news. This i observed since the times of Mas Selamat, which was yet another sensational news that tided over and everyone forgot about. I hope that the news gets forgotten, but not the lesson though. Now, don't get me mistaken; reading the news is not wrong. But the style of journalism nowadays seem to go along the lines of feeding public interests, and solely that. Having the media start to stray away from the actual news and enter into the lives of the people involved to use them as news, in a bid to captivate readers' attention- that, i think is wrong. And with more and more empowerment of the ...

Life is without meaning. You bring the meaning to it. The meaning of life is whatever you ascribe it to be. --Being alive is the meaning. joseph campbell

Speak to be understood. This is my random thought of the day. I've been doing a little bit of reading and writing for a project that i am due to submit tomorrow. (something that i ought to be working on right now, instead of blogging haha. But this is a quickie i swear.) I realise that many people have the tendency to write in long, complicated sentences which are strings of clause after clause after clause. Long, convoluted sentences that wraps itself around your brain and clench real hard, before you can make any head or tail out of it. And after you are done with that, you're on to yet another one. I got reminded of this a couple of days ago, when i read an interview by Mr Lee about his wife's influence on him. She says that we should write in clear concise sentences. I agree. But i think that long-winded sentences are simply a reflection of our incessantly firing neurons, that we are sometimes too lazy to curb and correct. The next time you write, ask yourself: ...

oh yes! i forgot, i wanted to share this for www.paulocoelhoblog.com. Character of the week: Chaplin Published on September 10, 2010 in Character of the Week . 42 Comments Print 210 Share A day without laughter is a day wasted. Despair is a narcotic: it lulls the mind into indifference. I do not have much patience with a thing of beauty that must be explained to be understood. If it does need additional interpretation by someone other than the creator, then I question whether it has fulfilled its purpose. Life could be wonderful if people would leave you alone. Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot. I thought I would dress in baggy pants, big shoes, a cane and a derby hat. everything a contradiction: the pants baggy, the coat tight, the hat small and the shoes large. I had no idea of the character. But the moment I was dressed, the clothes and the make-up made me feel the person he was. I began to know him, and by the time I walked onto the stage he was ...

Hohoho, it's been awhile since i updated! haha, been pleasantly occupied Nowadays. =) *breaks into a song* It's good, isn't it? Grand, isn't it? Great, isn't it? Swell, isn't it? Fun, isn't it? Nowadays~ =) *cough:CHICAGOMG!* SO! if you had to sum up 2010 thus far in a word, what would it be? Hmm, i'd say dramatic and (now) peaceful. (i can't count! =)) Hmm, it's another rollercoaster year this year. Not entirely in a bad sense i guess, i think i will finally have things to talk about in my end of year review! =) haha, but i'll save that for then! for today, i just thought i'd give a public thanks (despite the fact that my blog's public is probably not more than a handful) to this very nice lady who decided to give me a lift after seeing that i was DRENCHED in the rain this morning, waiting for the green man at the traffic junction, with my bag on my head as a feeble shelter. =) THANK YOU. =) I don't know you, but today you remin...

School has started for about 2 weeks and i'm tremendously behind time with all the lessons missed due to yog. This is worrying. But nonetheless, i view this semester with a little more confidence than the past one. Screw this, i'm gonna OWN! hahha, alright i'm just saying to psych myself up. =) But yes, i took the effort over the past couple of weeks to clear out some of the junk that has been accumulating since i graduated from JC. Almost as though it was done on purpose, these uncleared junk are the perfect parallelism to how i have given up the reigns over my own life for the past 2-3 years. Well, something's about to change. Enough of self-psyching, self-centered talk. =) the mega event of the recent past is probably YOG. As we can all see, there is a huge hoo hah about this event. It's not exactly a huge part of my life, but it has indeed given me a fresh experience. The organisation of the competition over at my event, leaves much much more to be desired for. ...

Once every so often, I like to withdraw into myself and shut out the world- whimsically. Just stop talking. No real reasons. Not really the first time. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, this is a part of me that needs some getting used to. Perhaps, the people who knows me, knows this happens. Perhaps, the people who do, doesnt exist. Perhaps i'm wrong- Perhaps this is selfish. But once, just once, every so often- i'd like to claim my leave from social behaviors. Just once every so often, i'd like to disappear. Take the phone off the hook- for ages. -I'm sorry though, if my habits hurt. And i do so appreciate the concern too. But, like my daddy says: ourself knows best. sk

i don't feel much about the end of exams actually- i guess that is a signal that perhaps i didn't work hard enough and build up the hunger for relaxation while mugging, hence i don't feel the surge of relief. Ah- i miss that feeling much actually. next sem will be a better sem. YES IT WILL BE. -------------------------- Preceptorship will commence on the coming Monday. I am rather excited about it, and I look forward to a time of learning and actually applying the knowledge that i have learnt in school. I believe if you ever meet a pharmer undergrad, you will hear the same unanimous complain about how there doesn't seem to be a meaning in doing what we are doing. How it feels like we are simply dead memorising the cold, hard, facts. How we all disagree with the system and feel that university education should be about thinking- and how it's been a long time since we last did more of that. For me, the curriculum has honestly entrenched certain doubts in this career p...

I just got home from the cemetery. It’s been perhaps 2 years since I last went sao mooing with my parents. The feelings about the trip are unchanged though. In the cemetery in the mornings, I always find a sense of calm and serenity. It’s really really beautiful in the morning during the drive over, when we pass the stretches of grassland, covered in a thin layer of mystiquey mist. With the rising sun illuminating the landscape, refracted in the water droplets hovering in the air, every thing looks so so nice. =) This year, quite a few people went to sao mu from my daddy’s side of the family. To my surprise, my grandmother went too. Note: she can hardly walk/stand/sit without pain (she told me one ok, not i exaggerate!).So yes, i was rather surprised to see her there. I like to hang out with my ah ma, even though i can’t really speak fluent hokkien. And sometimes i don’t understand the things she say. But i still like to hang out with her! =D while the rest of my uncles and aunties ...

Confused. is perhaps the wrong word. -------- clear headed and clear hearted. but where responsibilities meet emotions- tough.