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Random thoughts distracting me from studying. Friendship can be such a fragile thing. I never really did subscribe to the ideals that real friends contact each other most every other day. Perhaps it's ili and jo, but with my really close friends, we are close, regardless of contact. And i know we'll always stay that way. Perhaps i'm too emotionally isolated. But now, i find myself rethinking this habit of mine. well, recently i've been confronted again and again with changing group dynamics, changing relationships and sentiments, and undercurrents amongst a few of my closest friends. How shall i put this; the constants that i held on to in the past don't seem so constant anymore. That drives me a little mad. Having undercurrents left unsaid within a group- that drives me mad too. Slowly, i begin to identify individuals with their individuality rising up and above the cliques. Slowly i begin to realise that, perhaps they have found greener pastures elsewhere, other friends that they would rather treasure. Slowly, i begin to realise that not everyone reciprocates the level of importance that i feel about a particular group of friends. Slowly, i start to feel them grow distant and far away from the clique. That makes me sad, especially when that someone happens to be one I felt especially close and like minded to.

I really do hope this is transient.

Back to books now.

oh, but before i go, let me just say, I think i may have too much on my plate. Not all of which has been willingly loaded by me, but they are there nonetheless. *struggles for better time management*. Haa, and oh, let me also say, i think i complain wayyyyyy too much these days to be healthy. i annoy myself with my incessant grumblings! shut. up. sk. O.O

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