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满满呀~~

满满呀，mummy loves you. I hope you know that! You will always have a special place in my heart. 

I am gonna miss you so badly sweet little one. 
I'm gonna miss your cute little face, cute little cuddles and cute little feet that you would allow me to touch and hold haha. Although I imagine u can't be enjoying it. 
I'm gonna miss your shy but sweet nature, your gentle beady little eyes that always look for me. 
I'm gonna miss your timid little hunch melting into a comfortable and contented prata on my hand, especially when your are enjoying your neck massages, ear and belly rubs..  
I'm gonna miss how you trust and love me unconditionally, never bit me even a single time, and allowed me to manipulate your body and feed you meds this way and that, even though it must be super uncomfortable. 

Thank you for everything you have given me my dear 满满. 
Thank you for being my little one whom I look forward to seeing at home after work.
Thank you for letting me just sit with you in silence for hours when I had an extraordinarily hard day. You make all the bad memories go away somehow. 
Thank you for loving me and acknowledging me as your mummy through the good and bad times. 

Have fun in hamster heaven my dear, mummy is missing you loads. Forgive mummy okay? Mummy wasn't trying to give up on you.. Mummy just couldn't bear to let you go through another round of suffering.
满满 - May 2019 - Feb 2020

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