Just finished a weekend of loving goodness. yesterday was a perfect day with the man I would call my forever home. My dear dear, I would go to the ends of the world with you, and never look back. I love you so so so much. :) just thinking about your smile would make everything wrong go right. yesterday was a day we spent tgt, trying to get to hort park and mt faber, but plans had to shift due to the heavy heavy rain which the bus stop saved us from in the nick of time. it was a day with some slight discourse over earth and forest trail (what's wrong with me! lol!) and dear dear's initial disappointment with dji. but everything ended nicely when we managed to spend time tgt at home.. having a nice homey hawker center dinner, dear dear 疼我 and let me over order oyster omelette.. It was a cold night, but my heart is infinitely full and warm because you're in it. ^^ dear dear, 谢谢你 。I want this life with you in it, so much that I can't put a pen to paper for it. That's a lot, from the usually verbose me. The feelings overwhelm me so much, I think that's why happy tears rise in place of words when I think of you. Just, 那么多的幸福感啊。我爱你哦. I want this smile in my life everyday. See, it's even labelled for me!
today was spent apart though, I spared some time with some important ppl in my life. morning had me baking cookies with momsie, me learning to let go and let her have the main chef position to handle the whisk. It was a very nice experience actually learnt how to build team work with mossie. lunchtime was spent learning about extended family gossip with mum and gor hahahah. dinner and drinks was spent with jem debs Alex and nadia. I wish dear dear was there, but covid. so. I'm so happy that mummy, gor gor and I have the chances to spend Sundays tgt, it's still a nice tradition to have and keep. and with the gang, it's fun company as always. so classic and nice banter, and me feeling like the innocent baby of the group as always. it's good to have friends. :) i sometimes feel curious enough to wanna step deeper into their world, minds and understand their perspectives and feelings. but I think this bunch of friends, might be better left just the way we are.
I'm blessed. it's a good life.
daddy, we talked about you this week. I hope you have been well. we all miss you. I know how blessed I am to be given the gift of life and time, especially when I think of you because that is something which you have been denied. but I do hope, that in the slightest chance, maybe God really does have a plan for you when he took you so young. For my heart would hurt too much to think otherwise. I love you daddy, I rarely told you this when you were alive. but I really love and look up to you. Thank you for being my hero and inspiration.
Sk, and my unvarnished stream of consciousness
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