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爸爸,再见

爸爸,妹妹很想你。你住在医院的时候妹妹就有告诉你了。可惜,等不到爸爸回家。当时爸爸跟我说想爸爸又能怎样。那时的我还可以多去医院看你,陪着你。现在,除了抱着你的抱枕,你爱坐的椅子,你用过的东西,你给我的东西,回顾你过去的照片,摸着你的脸 妹妹真的什么都不能做了。爸爸,妹妹真的很想你。

之前,你在whatsapp 上,给妹妹流过一些留言。你说“妹妹,爸爸回来了。早一点回家。“对不起,妹妹没有抽多一点时间在家陪你。 现在我每天都在家,可是见不到老爸了。

老爸,你走得太突然了。大家都难以置信。我也是。我其实还有好多计划还没和你做。我知道你和我一样,爱看山水,爱动物,爱大自然。一直都想带你到更漂亮的地方旅游。对不起,还没来得及带你去。将来,我去的时候,你要记得跟着来ok?希望现在老爸已经可以到处游走了。

老爸,你知道我记性非常差。我很怕很怕会忘记和爸爸有关的东西。你要时常来提醒我ok?我想要在这里写下我所记得的:
老爸,你从我有记忆到现在,都是那么的特别,另类,和有创意。你就是我那么与众不同的老爸,我的英雄。谢谢你,在我小小的时候,每个星期天早上带我去吃东西。还带我去farmart 看动物,买芦荟甜品来吃。那是我第一次看到活生生的黑鸡 原来羽毛是白色的!我在你的车上总是学到很多东西,像是那个ecolink还在建的时候,你告诉我 “这座桥是给动物走的,不是给车走的“。当时我还以为你骗我!哈哈,真的建出来,还真是如你所说的。你就是这样,每次让我吃惊。

谢谢你带着我去吃我们家楼下,你爱吃的肉骨茶和煮炒。肉骨茶,也是你我最后一次一起吃的一餐。谢谢你不介意妹妹一直拿你做电做水的东西来做手工。谢谢你肯跟我解释一些工具的基本。将来妹妹会帮忙修理家里基本的东西ok?爸爸不用担心。

还记得小时候你大病一场回家,瘦得小时候的我害怕,不认得你。是当你把我抱到身边,让我做在你的腿上我才认得这是疼爱我的爸爸。爸爸的拥抱,妹妹就是会认得。就算换了个样子,感觉到了我就会知道,就会特别安心。谢谢你。

谢谢你为家里做出那么多特别的改良。真的不能想象,将来没爸爸的家会是怎样,但是我会尽量延续你的精神。有一次,妹妹睡到半夜,床突然塌了。隔天睡了就没问题了。当时也没想那么多。是过了几年,在换床褥的时候才发现有人帮我丁了床架却什么也没说。谢谢你爸爸,妹妹有发现。

我不会忘记老爸你是怎么不断的注意周遭,探索。和老爸在一起,你总是会注意到人家没看到的东西。总是会让我好好大笑一番。我会非常想念这一点。记得在台湾,有一次下起大雨,刮大风, 所有的伞都向上翻起。大家都狂抓着伞。老爸,你就干脆让伞不完全开,把头,脸和上身用半开的伞遮住: #problemsolved. 看了这张照片,我在伤心都笑了出来。谢谢你老是逗我笑。

老爸,谢谢你那么多年的疼爱。小的时候,有一次手指被车门夹道,又有一次被家门夹道。哈哈,每次你都是那样,半骂半关心的问“aiyo!妹妹你做么这样!“ 还记得老爸疼惜的眼神,厚实的手掌呵护着我。还有,那些半夜醉着,被托着回家。老爸看了也没说什。Hehe, 谢谢daddy 没有baodou 我。最后,我第一次分手,让对方搞得书也读不下。谢谢你告诉我你的经历,叫我拿个椅子给他,叫他要跳就跳。

老爸,谢谢你教会我善良和乐于助人的人生态度。谢谢你教会我,在人生,吃一点亏其实也没什大不了。大家开心和气就好。

老爸,28年前,2月25日 你为妹妹登记报生纸,2017年 2 月25日,妹妹帮你签死亡证书。感觉好心酸。对不起,没能让你抱孙,看着我们两兄妹结婚。对不起,没有多花时间陪你。对不起,让你受了那么多苦 可以的话我真的希望辛苦的是我。对不起,没有坚持早一点带你去医院。

老爸,你留给我的回忆太多了。妹妹会好好地珍惜。我真的很想很想你。偶尔回来看看ok*妹妹抱抱*


老爸,谢谢你。

至给我最爱得老爸:



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