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老爸 ♡

老爸，注册婚礼的日子将近了。

多一个星期，女儿就要注册结婚了。你知道吗? 

我想这身最大的遗憾，是没能让你看到我结婚。对不起，小时候扭曲的感情路让你担心了不少。

今晚，特别睡不着。也许是7月的最后一天，我却觉得这个月没好好地花时间和爸爸的回忆一起共处吧。骤然回忆起爸爸那一则whatsapp voice message, 跟着妹妹说 "妹妹，爸爸回来了。早一点回来 hor" 我这个女儿，怎么就那么没花时间陪你啊。。

4年了，好快啊。 今晚的我，站在你熟悉的角落，怀念你。回想小时候的记忆，突然有一些伤感我就要离开这个有着很多我跟爸爸的回忆的家。我回想着小时候kaypoh  地站在你身边眺望窗外，不知道你在看什么。在你身边陪你看报纸。回想着就你和我那一次去钓鱼，深夜坐在 kelong  尾端吹风，看星星。遗憾地看着原来矗立着你的树的那块地。老爸，我真的很像你。看着小树病到一个程度，看不下去就得马上去纠正和治愈。也不管那么多。我在想，小时候的我帮你扶着楼梯。当你认识的人经过时，应该会让你 paiseh 的时候，小小的我是否有给于你一点勇气呢?

老爸啊，妹妹很想你。我好希望我现在和以后都能做个让你欣慰的女儿哦。妹妹会帮你照顾妈妈的。在我们的心里，老爸你还切切实实地活着。我想，你应该会是一个很可爱的阿公哦 ❤

爸爸，有空回来看看哦。
♡

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