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This is for the Future- 5, 10, 50 years down the road.

There are days, I wake up and I pinch myself. That you're with me, not some one else.

I smiled the entire way through my run today.

I skipped through the sad songs because they no longer resonate, and I can't remember why they ever did. I circle this happy one; this one that trembles with love, joy and a little bit of delicate fear. For I have something that I actually fear to lose, for the first time in this lifetime. I have You. 

You're Fearless, when I'm fearful. You're logical where I'm over emotional. You're willing to take a leap of faith, when I'm held back by my worries and self fulfilling prophecies. You're the start of every story I want to participate in and close. And I'm so much Braver now, because of you. 

In due time, when we are on the cusp of a new life together. 
In due time, when we are on the cusp of a busy and mundane life together. 
In due time, when we are on the armchair looking back together. 
I know I will turn to you and smile this same contented smile as I have today. 
This smile that I'm surprised to feel in my heart. 
This smile that tells us that we have both found our forever home. 

I Love You. Thank you, for finally appearing. Thank you for being unabashedly you. 


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