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2012

Just a short note to end off my 2012.

My life has always been very sheltered. I may not come from a family with bucketfuls of gold and silver, but i have never had a day to starve, or worry about debts that are piling up which my family cannot pay or will one day transfer to me. I have been fortunate enough to have a mum who is extremely good with her money, and excellent at managing the household. I'm sure that the family would be very different without her, and for her, I am extremely thankful. Perhaps as such, in life, I have always gone for the safer options. Consistently opted for schools that has been less than what my potential could have allowed for. The ultimate choice that impacted my current and possibly future state of life is probably the choice of pharmacy school over medicine. Safe choices. 2012  has seen a change in mindset and method, and hopefully there will be more in the times to come. So for the year 2013, i challenge myself to challenge myself more. (Cliche as new year resolutions may be, hohoho). I dare myself to dream more, and dream bigger. To believe that anything is possibly, and that where there's will, things will find their way. So at the age of 24, I hope I can learn to dream.

Going one step forward, I hope I will inspire more people to dream too. I also hope to inspire more positivity in my immmediate environment. Because, take it from me, the workplace is a dreary dreary place. Each day is met with fresh complains, not compliments. I hope to change that. There is, in fact, lots to be happy for. And I hope people can be as vocal about their happiness, as they are with their anger. Jadedness should not be fashionable! Silly optimism should!

2012 has witnessed many many many changes. It has seen my transition through fyp; changes within a group of friends that I hold very dear to my heart; witnessed a couple of errors in judgement that I will carefully avoid in future; seen me affected by the travels that made me realise how much possibilities there are out there, how big the world is. 2012 has also seen my giant leap from graduation to adulthood; so far, it's been extremely busy, but I am glad for the opportunities to learn and grow further. 2012 was perhaps, indeed the end of the world- the world as I had known it to be. But when one thing ends, a new thing shall begin. A better one, I hope.

In 2012, there is ONE big person in my life to whom I owe a lot. The one who has stood by me through all the above transformations. The one who has patiently bent as I fought through the changes within myself, as I struggle to define who I am. The one person who has inspired in me the belief that really, anything is possible, as long as your are willing to try. This he did through actions, and not words. Real things, real discipline that he took upon himself. The one person, who has granted me such a strong fort which I know I can run to, that has allowed me the fearlessness to venture. The one who always catches my tears and held me close, when life get too much for me to handle. The one person who has made me believe that a relationship should allow 2 persons to bring out the best in each other. In fact, this is the real reason for me to blog this post today. Everything else is kinda just fluff. For the year 2012, I simply want to thank you, Jia Hao, for being such a constant and huge part of my life. Thank you. And for all that you have given, I hope I will be able to return in the years to come.

Love,
Sk

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