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I know i shouldn't complain, it doesn't help anything, i know that. But i've done the things that i think should be done to solve the problem, so in terms of redirecting energy, i think there's no necessity for that right now, so let me just type.

In short, it was a good day gone bad. I guess i shouldn't have let my happiness float me away. shouldn't have agreed to a movie, shouldn't have neglected contacting the necessary people. Made jiahao upset/disappointed/worried (i don't know), inconvenienced him, and i'm really very sorry for that. then i had a mega quarrel with my brother over i) why i did not contact ii) why my phone was flat in the first place. ii) him contacting jiahao. my initial reaction when i guessed that he contacted jh was a little too exaggerated. perhaps it was my being flustered over film changes, and also that i just don't like my friends/boyfriend to be contacted to ask about me. i just, don't like it. They're not responsible for me. if i didn't contact, scold me when i get back, go ahead. but he is not my nanny. i understand you were being concerned. i appreciate it, but i just don't like troubling jh. so yes, my reaction was big. overreacted perhaps. I'm sorry for that. and that, marks the first  mega quarrel we had in a long time. perhaps since entering uni.

severely annoyed with myself.

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