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sucks. really bad. (i would click "strikethrough" here if i could. just to appear like a teenage emo,like i wanted to when i keyed in www.blogger.com instead of atomic absorption spectrometry. -but i can't. =/)

I'm in the midst of completing a lab report that is due tmr.. and i am in dire need of a brain break. so, here i am. School has just redefined the term draining. The trail of assignments, reports, projects, and tests run as long as the Nile river does flow. And my brain is stretched as thin as keira knightley can get. I shan't even begin to list out the schedule for the upcoming few weeks, it's oddly demoralising. Sometimes, we meet with a setback in life that shows us just how small we are. Sometimes, these setbacks are the things that opens your eyes to your own shortcomings, and brings you out of the small shrouded Nirvana of yours, -or mine for that matter. I am seriously lagging behind the standard of the class. i can hardly answer my assignment questions. and for once, I find myself smoking through most of my assignment question without barely understanding 2/3s of what i say. when it's all laid out on the table, i am a bad bad bad student, with an immense load to catch up on, but not enough time to actually do it. when it's all laid out on the table, my cap seems like it's going to bore it's way through the table top, the flooring, right down to the bottomless basement in the arena of caps. How now brown cow? What are you going to do?




i need a plan.

i need to devise a strategy to get me out of this rut that i bulldozed and lodged myself in.

i need motivation and inspiration.

and yes, these things are going to come from me. i am going to give birth to some, right now!


time will be made, assignments will be completed without a hitch, tests will be overcome, revision will get started and roaring, the finals are going to come and go like an enjoyable summer breeze. i am going to excel!

GANBATTE!

signing off,
Ms- Notsosmallinthefaceofadversity-BIG. =)

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