The little things in life. =)

gaa, i realise that i have a problem: i fail to deliver, as a friend. i think i have made promises, promises to "be there", but more often than not, i'm not contactable unless willing to-that is, when time allows. too caught up- i conclude. i'm too caught up in doing the things i have to do, that i have awfully neglected the promises i made. gaa, is this what you would term hypocritical? putting up a "show" of compassion, but never actually delivering it? would it soften the impact if i say that i genuinely care? that i do mull over it on a daily basis, but i dun have time to translate it into action? o yuck, i'm already disgusted by myself. i've said it many times, "it feels awful to say this, but im sorry if it seems like i don't care bout ur stuff. i do care ok? it's jus that i've rilli got much at hand to complete. i'm not saying that i don't have time for you, but ya... i'm sorry...=(" it sounds like an excuse...

IT'S OVE- ! *gag* ~and the repercussions hit me wave after wave like seismic tremors.~ it's NOT over. YAY!!! :D oh well! i can't be less bothered =) im deteremined to brighten up my life =) sk

i mentioned in the previous post that many are down in the dumps recently. yep. i did a bit of looking around blogs just now, and i realise, encouragements, are futile. no doubt, i wouldn't deny that i don't expect anyone to buck up with my "take care" or my "jia you! you can do it!", i'm aware actually that it probably does not have any weight. but, enlighten me please, what else? when it comes to human relations, everything runs both ways. at least, from the way i see it, it does. for me, as long as it involves another person, then it means i'm susceptible to wrong interpretations- be it subject to situations, or to my mood. my point is this: we can be gentle and we can be harsh in our expression of care. tried and true, the harsh way of dealing out care almost never works, so we all opt gentle. but, how gentle is gentle? or, how gentle is harsh? it's a hard thing to guage. of course, constructive comments and suggestions are always good, but...

i won't usually complain publicly. but THIS, is a bit much. =) just abit tho =) ohoho! *whispers: i have the tendency to exaggerate =D to add drama =D. bear with me! its entertaining ho! =D* FOUR TIMES! tt's 1, *right. here at this pt of time, you can raise ur index finger* 2, *mid finger up too. nono! dun put down ur index!! tt's wat I, not you, shd b doing. =)* 3, *ring finger now... good, u're catching onn....* 4! *finally, ur pinky up too! =) now do u get a bttr pic of 4? gd 4 u...=)* right. four times of wat hur? =) 4 times of repeating the same instruction [requirement], a very simple one too! yah. structure of program. ambiguous? maybe, so i said, organisation of participants. ie hw do u organise ur participants. isn't it tiring? =) four times! oh well, if its JUST the instruction, maybe i wont react SO violently. bt nooooo..... =) being nice n helpful, n at the same time doubtful of th- nvm! *go figure=)* yah, instead of open ended, i even c...

i was "blog-hopping" around for about 1.5hrs just now, for want of some exercise. [oh heck hopping takes strength man!]=) the "next blog next blog" sort of thing. a few of them really caught my attention. so fascinating to see the various things that people blog about: politics, photography, anime, music, family, business- in two forms: 1. the kind that discusses, for example, ways to market your products more effectively. 2. the kind that, well, markets themself- very graphic. [MY EYEBALLS!!] Another interesting kind exclaims to the world their undaunted pursuit of freedom of choice to love a member of the same gender. =/ v graphic too. the irony of it one of these blogs was entitled sth like "the simple upright guy". right. oh oh! can check out these 2 blogs!! interesting people!! =) mm, nth too thick or heavy; simple blogs that rant about their life. i don't usually dig these sort of blog...