The little things in life. =)

i break, too. breaking down at the cusp of our graduation. and you, i really want to trust you. i haven't trusted anyone in my life in quite the same way as i do you. i really really really do want to. 

I've held off posting this for a long time. I'm very poor at following up with ppl, regardless of how close we may be. this is because i'm always too caught up with the "thr and then"s, so I find it hard to reply texts, keep up with frequent updates via text, fb etc. But i make it a point though, for those few special individuals who are a little more special than others, to go out of my way to help when help is needed. Being there when it matters, that's what matters- to me. But perhaps everyone has a different idea of friendship. Pardon my being an old stick in the mud, but people of the past never had the luxury of phones, or the economic capacity to constantly meet up with friends. But that did not affect their ability to make friends. For a particular friend who meant a lot a lot to me. I still rmb the night we talked about your plans, and i rmb your defiance. Your wilful rebuttal. What hurt was not that our well meaning advice fell on deaf ears. Wh...

I have officially lost interest in sleep. (Or work, for that matter.) Came across an old blog post where i did this huge list of personality tests and decided to do sth immensely useless: hahha THEN & NOWW! XD so here we go, really quick! 1) THEN: Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve What Gender Is Your Brain? NOW:  Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! 2) THEN:   You Are Pretty Logical You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep...

I have officially lost interest in sleep. (Or work, for that matter.) Came across an old blog post where i did this huge list of personality tests and decided to do sth immensely useless: hahha THEN & NOWW! XD so here we go, really quick! 1) THEN: Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve What Gender Is Your Brain? NOW:  Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! 2) THEN:   You Are Pretty Logical You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect l...

Just a short note to end off my 2012. My life has always been very sheltered. I may not come from a family with bucketfuls of gold and silver, but i have never had a day to starve, or worry about debts that are piling up which my family cannot pay or will one day transfer to me. I have been fortunate enough to have a mum who is extremely good with her money, and excellent at managing the household. I'm sure that the family would be very different without her, and for her, I am extremely thankful. Perhaps as such, in life, I have always gone for the safer options. Consistently opted for schools that has been less than what my potential could have allowed for. The ultimate choice that impacted my current and possibly future state of life is probably the choice of pharmacy school over medicine. Safe choices. 2012  has seen a change in mindset and method, and hopefully there will be more in the times to come. So for the year 2013, i challenge myself to challenge myself more. (Cliche ...

It's been awhile since last posted! Hope everything's ging fine for everyone. today I'm bringing with me a fresh sprite of optimism, which I hope to share.    

To see with our eyes, and believe with our heart.

It all works out very fine for me you know, if they arent so strict and meticulous, i don't need to go to such pains to be painstaking accurate at every letter of the application. but really, given this standard, no wonder we need to exercise discretion when screening through literature.

i woke up at 4am this morning without an alarm, thinking about all the work undone. realising it's the 12th, and that i'm meeting AC on the 19th to run through my presentation, which i haven't editted. thinking about needing to submit 12 more prescriptions by tomorrow, and i haven't done any. thinking about topics discussions that have't been fulfilled. thinking. thinking. thinking. but unable to drag myself outta bed; my body resisting to put itself through the tsunami of shit. grr. i shall shut both my eyes and trudge through it. Need to remind myself really, that work never stops. ever. Need to remind myself of who i am truly- that i exist without the work. i simply have to start living and breathing again. A random thought, you know how some sites like to ask you to key in some verification code before posting? I like the way blogger does it. "Please prove that you're not a robot." haha, but unfortunately, i think i am becoming one. ok. e...

Just thought i should dedicate a post to her. After all, she does have a pretty profound impact on the way i think and live my life.

Feeling immensely loved and blessed, as always. =) i'm a pretty lucky person i must say. nothing speaks love more than when my dad asks if i want food, and despite my resistance, goes downstairs and buys up 2 loafs of bread of different flavours (because he doesn't know what i like- but they are both my favourite flavours though. =)) and when he makes coffee for me, and brings in an extra cup of hot water, because he doesn't know how sweet i like my coffee. all for a daughter who gets too obssessed to leave her room when working. thanks for the thoughtfulness daddy. =) and this made me think back to a night a few days back, as my mum sobbed and unleashed her frustrations on me, for lack of a better avenue. Despite the mildly unjustified scoldings, I'm glad that she did let it all out. And glad, in a way, that my late coming gave her a good trigger to break down her defences. One thing she said that night struck me hard, (about my granddad) "he's not your fa...

http://www.waterfallsofmalaysia.com/51chiling.php Here we go again crazy brain bugs! Day trip candidate #1- Chiling falls (isn't she bautiful? =)). http://themttrekker.uuuq.com/taman_negara_kuala_tahan.html candidate #2- taman negara national park. Time to plot when i'm gonna need a nature break.  sk

ultra catchy! on another note, so many thing's changing that it's getting a little hard to catch my breath. Not that it's all bad, it's just... non-comfort zone. But but but, i hold faith firm that it's for the best. sk

The People You Will Fall In Love With In Your 20s JUN. 8, 2012   By  RYAN O'CONNELL You will fall in love with someone who annoys you, whose orgasm face looks and feels pathetic. Despite all of this, there’s something keeping you drawn to them, something that makes you want to protect them from the harsh world. What you fail to realize, however, is that you are the harsh world. You aren’t their noble protector — you are someone to be protected from but it takes a lot of dates, a lot of nights where you question whether or not you are actually a good person, for this to ever resonate with you. When it’s over and whatever love is left is put back in the fridge like a sad plate of leftovers, you will finally understand that you have the power to hurt someone. You can either hurt them or love them and it’s up to you to decide what kind of role you would like to take on in future relationships. What feels more comfortable — being the one who loves more or be...