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quote: haha frm ili
"ever suppressed some feelings to urself? i thk every1 has gone thru dat b4, at least once. agree?

well.. wad did u do?

hmm.. did u tell some1 abt it eventually? did u express urself in some ways? or just kept it in all the way?

if u told some1....did u say out everythg dat's on ur mind? did u feel better aft dat?

or did u just let out enuf to release urself from the unbearable tension inside u?"

hmmz.. qn 1: y m i bloggin on this?
ans: no particular reason...my blog juz needed sum "ressurrection phial" [haha abit too obssessed w/ fable] to make it alive again...so yea...this kinda presented itself as the "phial"...

entry starts:
suppressing feelings...i think that is a part of life ...if not life itself...especially in s'pore dun u tink? suppressing is something i consider a life-skill...i think high eq ppl might acknowledge that...when to say wat n whn not to... it's a matter of holding your tongue...[that i cant do v well..not juz yet...]

but i dun think that is wat ili meant. so, i shall zoom into our main content now... i believe i m pretty much alive [ o wait...lemmi chk... hmm...pulse not thumping...that normal? yea...i'm alive...:D] haha when it boils down to suppressing feelings i think i might just have sum things to say...i dun lyk to express emotions that r unpleasant, 4 simple reason that i dun c a nd to make ev1 else feel unpleasant... i tink by now u might hav noticed thru. the nonsensical crap...i have not reach the main context ... [i forgot my main context liao..nvm..juz kp typing..]there r things i want to say, things that i wan to express...n thr they r...at the tip of my tongue...[beeliee me...mouth's wealli cwowded !! :D] 90% of the tym i let thm slip away... [haha thr's always tt 10 % reserved for whn i get realli pissed...hahah] for me, suppressing emotions isn't realli bad..i tink it saved my butt on a few occasions...tho. i do regret 4 not spking up on certain issues..[still regreting...haha...yah i noe...a life of no regrets...wat crap..]

so 4 me, i basically told no one...[othr than myself...(as sum might hav recently discovered cuz i told thm)...i luv toking to myself!! complaining to myself!! hahah!!:D]how did i express thm? [i told thm to myself in th mirror] do i feel better? haha well...outta a hundred percent, i will recover on an average 75% [15% regret n pissed-off-ness] hah yea...i prefer to ctrl my emotions...[tho. i will let my emotions triumph 4 awhile b4 regaining ctrl]..so yar...i will sweep those evil tots away..[tt's y i hav no tym to clear my rm!!cuz i'm bz clearing up my mind...n dun tell me my brain is oreadi spotless n grooveless]...n sumhow..thy will stay away...

hmm...if i'm a teacher i'll giv this entry a 3/10...FAIL!!! y? TOTAllY OUT OF POINT!! :D.. muahaha

outta pt sk
p/s...to anyone hu might b tinking "shucks... sk cant even share her tots ...sum fren..." haha lol...totally read ur mind!! **sk triumphs internally: hah! i'm psychic!** ok maybe not...but pls dun tink anything on tt line...not u!! it's me!! mE! ME! hahahah!! yah.. :|

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