The little things in life. =)

I first heard this song in my first literature class during JC. The task for us was to bring something "poetic" to class and talk about it, saying why you think it's poetic. I brought a dried rose, and called it time. I think i said the rose was an encapsulation of time, artificially frozen in the rose. While time continues to tick by in the surrounding, the rose alone, stays the same. And we wonder, is that really beauty? Is that really what we want, everytime we wish to "freeze the moment"? (ok fine, perhaps i spruced it up a little here hehhe, well i couldn't remember what 17years old me said!) Anyway, thinking back, i think that answer was very typical, very typcially me too; model answer for "poetic item", not going beyond the boundaries drawn. Doing ok,  not excellent. This here is different. I will bet with you, apart from myself, nobody else remembers what i, or anyone else, brought to that class. Except for this song, brought by jo ...

Love this song off the new album by Jason Mraz! =) Through his 10 years in the music industry, i believe his listeners bear witness to his growth as a person. This album seems to carry a maturity that hasn't quite been seen before. I wonder, how will I mark my own growth 10 years from now? Stay rooted! sk "Sometimes it might seem dark, but the absence of light is a necessary part."

Is what i think my finals will become, if i cannot put down the gradnight issues and start studying NOW.

After so long of thinking that my brain is in the process of mis-wiring itself, so you're the culprit! omg. What a relief. =) Haha, and WHAT a name. XD (That is an actual clinical terminology, can you believe it?! pubmed it!) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Exploding_head_syndrome

I was intrigued by all the claims and numbers flying around surrounding the HDB issue so i decided to do some quick calculations on my own last night. The results i found were rather interesting. It all started from something that one mp said about this situation: "  $1k/mth CAN buy 2RHDB flt@$100k?YES! 1st timer get $60kHDB grants. $40k balance fully covered in 25/30yr by ur CPF  ". Let's dissect the situation. Imagine we have a scenario of a 35year old man, drawing a fixed $1k/mth salary. Using the CPF contribution calculator ( http://www.cpf.gov.sg/cpf_info/Online/Contri.asp ), his monthly contribution to the ordinary CPF account would be $180.29 (35-45yo), $163.10 (when he is 45-50 yo), $110.52 (50-55yo), $95.670 ($55-60yo), which drops as you go. This amount in his CPF account can be used to pay for his flat. Scenario: payment in 30 years Basic amount to be paid per month to complete payment in 30 years: $111.11 Prevailiing interest rates: 2.60% p.a. Compo...

i know im spamming. but this shall be the last one.  鬼打墙 求助编辑 百科名片 所谓鬼打墙，就是在夜晚或郊外，会在一个圈子里 走不出去。这种现象首先是真实存在的。有很多人经历过。 试验 　　那么 这种现象是怎么造成的呢，其实 生物学 已经有了明确的答案。 　　首先做一个实验。把一只 野鸭 的 眼睛蒙上，再把它扔向天空，它就开始飞    鬼打墙 　　，但如果是开阔的天空，你会发现，它肯定是飞出的一个圆圈。 　　你不信，可以自己再试一下，把自己的眼睛蒙住，在学校的操场上，凭自己的感觉走直线，最后你发现 你走的也是一个大大的圆圈。 　　一言概括，生物运动的本质是 圆周 运动。如果没有目标，任何生物的本能 运动 都是圆周。 　　为什么呢？ 因为生物的身体结构有细微的差别，比如鸟的 翅膀 ，两个翅膀的力量和 肌肉 发达程度有细微的差别。人的两条腿的长短和力量也有差别，这样迈出的步的距离会有差别，比如左腿迈的步子距离长 ，右腿迈的距离短，积累走下来，肯定是一个大大的圆圈，其他生物也是这个道理。 　　但是为什么生物能保持直线运动呢，比如人 为什么走出的是直线呢。因为我们用眼睛在不断的修正方向，也就是我们大脑在做定位和修正。不断的修正我们的差距，所以就走成了直线。 解决方法 　　1.如遇到鬼打墙的事件， 不要慌张，集中一切注意力，睁开眼睛。 　　2.夜间行路带把手电筒就行了。 　　3.迷了路要问人。 　　4.根据北极星的位置来辨别方向。 Jiayou bah. sk

When i'm struggling to just stay in the game and not give up, i really wonder if this is for me at all. To continue down this path, or to seek my fate somewhere else? But that's not a question for me to answer, at least not in the near future. I think this time, it's up to the path to choose if it wants me or not; not the other way around.

i've checked it again and again. i don't know why it's still so bad. but i've really checked it many times through. maybe i'm really bad at this? what if i'm really bad at this? can you accept me as that and please don't crush my self-worth? i'm really sorry to disappoint. truly sorry, but you don't know how much it means to me, just to have you guys see me as satisfactory. i just want it to be ok. why is it so hard?

was a little tickled by myself when i saw the latest named folder in my thumbdrive dedicated to fyp. Must've been very sleepy cus i dun rmb at all. i called it "fyp returns".

just took a skive and explored this interesting new app called pinterest. go check it out, it's like tumblr with a little more aesthetic appeal. basically, you get virtual boards and you pin up wtv is of interest to you on your boards. pretty cool i'd say. but after awhile, i realise that good old blog is still the best.

i don't know why you did what you did. But i sure hope you have a good reason for it, for causing her so much pain. sigh. This is really bad timing.

what can i say. sometimes certain words, ppl or situations in life can be pretty hard to take. Just, don't take it to heart. Easy. Keep fighting(?)

that was my biggest academic effort to date, (being never really inclined to studying). that was one of the longest day i've ever had, (more than 24 hours of working at the same thing). and that was definitely my longest birthday ever too. - and, it all goes down the drain thanks to my terrible time management. i'll take it as a hard lesson. guess i really need to learn. but that was a most painful painful way to learn it i think. i try not to be a drama queen with myself- but boy, that was a terrible first step into my 23rd, i guess it doesn't bode very well. trying times. be gone.

I think toughest sem yet is a huge understatement. No, really. (inner voice: it'smyfinalsemasastudentdammitwhycan't youletmeenjoy?!) again i tell myself, if i get through this, i can get through anything. But with pre-reg coming up.... well.... it's hardly convincing. but it's gonna happen anyways, so no point thinking about it. i feel tired just looking forward though. ohmygah. keep marching on... keep marching on... keep marching on...

Again, i'll say i really love being in water. Love feeling the water rush over my body, watching the shine and shimmer of water's reflections off the wall, watching my shadow at the bottom of the pool, and watching the way the water breaks at my finger tips and create their own shadow. and if i may say, most of all, i like how graceful and fluid i feel in water, as compared to my usually klutzy style on land. ahh. i got my 2nd swimming intervention from a stranger today!! Today, the stranger made a trip specially and walked up to me, just to tell me that he wanted to compliment me for my breast stroke. It the absolute purest sports sense of the word. Can't say how much that meant to me! Nothing would suffice i think; i was over the clouds! =)) hahaha. It was immense for me, to receive that kind of praise. I'd say he knows i'm still learning, because i was still swimming in the shallow pool and he probably just wanted to encourage me to keep going. =) but nonetheless...

Christmas has always been my favourite season; it's the songs, the atmosphere, the love and the overall mood of a 圆满 year. my only wish this christmas is to have a good christmas, as always, one where i can laugh and show my appreciations for the people who made my life so much more. Perhaps a good christmas dinner with the JC gang; home-cooked meal at josh's as we do every Christmas; catch up with where everyone is heading in life before they stray too far away from us. Please please please, that's all i'm asking for this year. Give me that little bit of time away from fyp for that, alright? my favourite christmas song:think. a delightful listen, hundred times over:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=-QND5VyT_os#!

-can be so infectious. 12 hours before a paper isn't exactly a good time to have a long convo. I get this feeling that somehow, my optimism must have been quite insulting to you. In fact, it might almost have been condescending- extending from the background concept that you held so tightly. If that was felt, i'm truly sorry. I didn't mean it. Like i said, i was only concerned about your happiness. Truly so. But you made a good point; i guess i can't gauge your happiness using my own standards. Or, i shouldn't gauge your life by my standards. (Cus happiness in life is my ideal, not everybody else's.) Perhaps, I've really been too pampered. But still, i'm sorry, as convincing and realistic as you were, i wish to live my own ideals. So no, i'm not going down with pessmism. I'm gonna fight this, for you.

Sick of studying the same things again and again. Worried about  FYP, dunno how i'm gonna die for that after exams. in need of a break! got nothing much to post, so i'll just share some snippets of things keeping me alive these past few dreary weeks. taken on my cui, highly ridiculed (haha) but also highly loved 2 megapix nokia phone that still smses using T9. Life philosophy for now. fyp i'm sorry. PT i'm sorry.  Drawing much too much than i should. Liked this particular one alot though! That very faint rainbow from the other day that appeared in the split minute when i was about to walk away from the window after admiring the brilliant orange sky at sunset. no amount of editing could fix this though. what i see everyday at cck library. haha, beautiful landscape for a restless final year student trying to study. (with some editing, not too bad for a 2mp cam eh?) memories of storyboarding of film. that's my drawing of my own carica...

there are just some films that are more lasting to rewatch, and some that become dreary on 2nd sitting. Movies like Money No Enough, were a joy to watch, and initially, i had though that it was jack neo's commendable effort in creating serious undertones in a light-hearted movie. but on 2nd watch, nah, i thought too much for him. he's just trying really hard to entertain. This is just like ppl. But hopefully in life, we get more of the kinds of characters that can endure a 2nd, 3rd and many times over rewatching, and still be intriguing in the new interpretation they present each time.

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