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2017

Dad.

I suppose, that's the single most defining event of the year. Catastrophic. 老爸啊,你的过世让今年所发生的一切·有了不一样的转折。如果不是因为你,我想我应该还是会像以前一样,让今年又在匆匆忙忙的工作与朋友之间消耗掉。我想,这让为成长了不少,也让我定下了不少。可是,我真的好想你啊。

Daddy's passing redefined a lot of things for me. how important family is; how i should cherish the time i have with my mum; how i should not take anything for granted; how to be more cautious, yet aggressive about the people i need to protect.  Through that, i also grew to realise that there are many things that I will be too time-poor to handle later, therein affecting the way I manage my work. I begin to realise and accept the fact that I not a superhuman, that sometimes responsibly saying no is the right thing to do, that some painful decisions must be dealt with head on, so that i can protect my responsibility to the people who matter to me.

In 2017, I have grown a lot. But the expense of my innocence, is vast too.

Consistently, the closure of every year has always been pleasant. When arguments and difficulties of the past year prove to be negligible, because we made it through any way. This year however, is gray. I am still immensely grateful for everything else that i have been blessed with: a strong family, a wonderfully understanding boss who balances nurture with a great amount of challenge to help me grow, a group of friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin- family that we picked to create, a boy for me to love and be loved by in return, a job that satisfies me. I'm still blessed with the capacity to feel joy and love.

But in his memory, this year shall be gray. Goodbye again Daddy. You're dearly and sorely, sorely missed. I believe we will meet again some day, I believe, you will still come visit in my dreams, hopefully in a better state. Thank you, for giving me 28 years of love, upbringing and good memories. I treasure them and will hold them close to my heart.

Much love
妹妹

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