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So I am really starting to resent all the post work hours pumped into work. I do not see why and how putting in hours to train your staff, do your projects, analyse your data is meaningful to me and my personal growth. I swear I am trying, but this is TOO trying.

So I am tired.

I need to breath my own air, free my thoughts, and do the things that I need to do to add meaning to my life before i lose it all to the damnation of work!

I would love to love my job, yes. And I can. If only I don't need to busy myself with all the hassle of these other things that I don't get to choose. GO AWAY you guys.

*miserable whatsapp emoji*

Ok, had to get that out of my system. And I'm just procrastinating before I start on them damned viva qns (Your brains must be packed with wonder to think us competent in setting exam qns). May this new found building resentment lead me to a better place, or a better way of doing things without wanting to kill myself.

Ha. Ha, Ha.

sk


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