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Ok, i have 15mins. CNY this year was very special to me in so many ways, i can never do it justice if i attempt to describe it.

-So i won't. (What lazy?! =D)



I will, however, pick on one particular episode to speak about here:

This CNY, i paid a visit to jenny's granddad, with him as well of course. Throughout the visit, it was very evident that jenny's ah gong was an aging man; his memory and vision were both very quickly deteriorating. Despite this, there is still one thing within him that never faded, and that is his love for his wife, who unfortunately left us a few years ago. Whoever coined the term "time can heal all wounds" should really meet jenny's ah gong right now and be prepared to feast on those words. Years have past, but jenny's ah gong continues to talk about how she has suffered so much with him when they were younger; how very sad he was when she died, and how he cried so badly over her passing. When jenny asked him "Ah gong, are you happy that so many grandchildren and children came to visit you today?" He plainly replied "No la. Ah ma is not here anymore, how to be happy?" No, it wasn't attention seeking behavior. On that day too, he showed me many pictures of him and her, and many of their children when they were much younger. For a frugal man, he was willing to pay for a camera in those difficult times, and was willing to take great efforts to keep photographic documentation of the ages that have passed. That says a lot about what memories mean to him, doesn't it? I don't really know what to say about the pictures, except that I was deeply moved by the depth of life captured in the simplicity of the images. The photographs were very simple, black and white. with no fancy focus or camera tricks. just a straight forward aim and shoot. But, they surpass many of the nicely tuned up photos that i have ever seen. "Beautiful" is how i think i should rightfully describe it.

After that day though, I found myself a new hobby. (Surprise!) I found my old camera; the kind with no flash, no need for batteries, and the kind that you have to wind up every time you want to take a shot. I found some film still within it and sent them for developing. (i think the film roll was from 6 years ago. i forgot what they featured. =S but i'm excited to find out!) Then, i bought some new old-school film rolls. And i'm all set to capture life and all its emotions in that little box of a camera- no frills attached. =)

sk

haa, i should so be studying right now! overshot by 15 mins! omg!

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